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July 19, 2016, 04:34:20 AM
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llillith

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 Hi. This is my first post and hopefully I am writing at the right place. I want to share my experience and I am looking forward to any input. Let me say I am a complete beginner in this! Most of this I do not know how to explain.

I have met a guy and we connected instantly. I have broken up my long term relationship and was easily manipulated by him. I think he hypnotised me and not only I was in a trance state with him feeling orgasmic just by looking at him, but weird thing started happening. I do not know how to call him, magician, shaman or whatever, but he looked like a demon for a moment and then both of us started acting crazy feeling amazing dark sexual energies. After that we felt like we are weightless.

Later on, I was in a trance again and he evoked visions in me. Also I have been seeing symbols and dreaming weird dreams.

I hate that I can not do anything like this without him. I have been reading books and things like that but I do not feel it. He has been stroking my ego how rare this is. But everyone can learn how to do this.

He showed me mind-blowing things and pretty much disappeared saying how I need to listen to myself and take some time so my consciousness rises and my perception changes or else I will fall apart if we continue doing things together like that.

All this experiences obviously worry me but are pleasurable and fun. I could get away from him if I wanted to, I think. But he changed my life for better and I am thankful for it.

All thoughts are welcome please. Is there a psychological explanation or is it magic?

July 19, 2016, 04:47:54 AM
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Well, some of it could be explained psychologically as the simple work of passion and from the little you have described, I would say that your partner did actually use psychology on you during those experiences. I am also getting a vibe that his intention was rather abusive towards you, maybe a psychic vampire.

July 19, 2016, 01:55:32 PM
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From your description, the "purely psychological" explanation would require a fuck ton of experience on the part of the other person and upon him having somewhat intimate knowledge of yourself, llillith. So it's unlikely that he did that purely through psychological efforts.

I would say that yes, there was likely some magic involved. It was also nice that he backed off to give your mind time to come to grips with it, rather than abusing you until it destroying your perceptions.

Have you been trying to raise your consciousness and change your perceptions?

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July 19, 2016, 05:20:05 PM
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From your description, the "purely psychological" explanation would require a fuck ton of experience on the part of the other person and upon him having somewhat intimate knowledge of yourself, llillith. So it's unlikely that he did that purely through psychological efforts.

I would say that yes, there was likely some magic involved. It was also nice that he backed off to give your mind time to come to grips with it, rather than abusing you until it destroying your perceptions.

Have you been trying to raise your consciousness and change your perceptions?

~Steve

Thank you Steve. It is really nice to see a positive outlook on this, since most of people I have talked with about this dislike him.
Well he has very intimate knowledge of myself because I told him basically everything, but even then, yeah there was likely some magic involved.

To answer your question, I try on my own and explore things. I think I have helped many people to raise their consciousness. I am living my life and I feel things a bit differently than before. I read lots of books and forums like this practising baby steps hoping for something, but I have not at all significantly raised my consciousness and changed perceptions. I am impatient and I must do better. Any tips or links about what should I do or in what way, for me in this case, would be great if you can please?

July 19, 2016, 06:50:18 PM
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Ugh. "Raising your consciousness" is such a New Agey term - it evokes great sentimentality, but offers very little in terms of practical directions. "Training your mind and it's faculties" gives a little more meat to work with. There isn't anything inherently mystical about this - a viewpoint that doesn't sell many books, but it is what it is. There is really no need to make the practice of staring into a candle flame for an hour more than it is - staring into a candle flame for an hour.

Perceptions are rooted in beliefs. There's a whole lot of ways to change these beliefs, but you must first become aware of them.

As to your original question, you might want to check out Draja Mickaharic's "Mental Influence". The subtitle, Magical Techniques Used To Control Other People, is pretty self-explanatory.

July 23, 2016, 06:27:49 PM
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Yeah, it is a new agey term, but that's what the guy said, so she's gotta figure out what he meant.

llillith: I would suggest trying to see the world from other peoples' view points. Ie, pick a co-worker, friend, family member and take several minutes and try to imagine what a normal day would look like for them. Draw parallels from your own life if you get stuck: for instance, start off with taking up, then morning routine, etc. Do this exercise over and over again for various individuals.

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Mastery does not occur when you've performed a feat once or twice. Instead, it comes after years of training, when you realize that you no longer notice when you're performing a feat which used to require so much effort. Even walking takes years of training for a human: why not everything else?