So I've been studying and practicing magick and more specifically Alchemy, hermeticism, jungian psychology, shamanism, and sigils/thoughtforms for over 10 years now and I've experienced a wide range of changes in my reality and within myself.
Its taken me across the globe and changed my physical makeup. Its enlightened me to what I originally could only assume were consequences, introduced me to some of the most powerful people on earth, and given me experiences that I can only describe with the words used by mystics of the past and prophets in mythology. This includes passing through the eye of the needle, the alchemical marriage, the opening of the third eye, the long dark night, ect, ect. At this point everything regarding the path of the mystic has been covered and I'm beginning to explore ideas such as time, immortality, and yes.... aliens from other dimensions as well as physical beings from other planets.
However, upon my return to what I consider the occult community (which I will define as online forums, local groups, members of secret societies, and modern writers and their fans) I have encountered immense resistance to the lessons I've learned personally regarding the current situation of humanity, where we came from, and where we are going.
From where I stand, it seems like the occult community as a whole (and I'm speaking generally here) has failed to learn the lessons of the past and is in fact stuck in rediscovering those lessons in order to better understand where they fit as individuals within a modern society which has evolved immensely since the time of the ancient mystics.
It seems to me that the average human, while having no knowledge of the occult and is often atheist in modern society, is generally better suited to operate as a member of the modern body of humanity than your average occultist. To me this is simply because modern society is an evolution of an ancient one and when a certain practice or understanding becomes no longer sustainable, society adapts to satisfy the majority in order to maintain harmony with the greater body of humanity. Your average modern human only needs to understand how to operate in the current system in order to be successful in contributing to the body of humanity.
The pattern I've witnessed is that the more an individual can and will contribute to the greater body, the more elevated their position in terms of social status, money, and responsibility.
While the greater body of humanity grows and develops, leaders of mankind have conflicting ideas of which way it should go and therefore we encounter all forms of disagreements in history. We have seen brothers kill each other, tribes and nations at war. Politicians engage in slander, and corporations conducting hostile takeovers as well as extremely rich individuals using complex financial tools to ensure them and their supporters continue to experience success.
When I look at the history of the body of humanity I see struggles and obstacles, lessons learned, and maybe a few scars, but overall I see intense progress. The world as a whole has experienced great accomplishments in thwarting violence, disease, and poverty.
Suffering and chaos is an ever present constant, but its obvious to me that we have eased suffering along the way and made so many advancements in our understanding of the chaos that surrounds us. Without considering my current research, its impressive to think that we once barely understood the movement of the herds, the tides, or the weather. Now we have the ability to look into the canyons of planets across our solar system and collect samples from the rock.
The earth has impressively gone from only being able to create single celled organisms that could barely tell light from dark to what humanity is today.
While the struggle is constant and real and everyday brings new problems to be solved, I don't believe my faith in humanity to be blind.
However, that which raised me, "the occult community" feels like its now turning on me. The general occultist in my latest experiences have been poor, uneducated, uninvolved with society, and wrapped up and confused by theories that do nothing to empower them, but only enslave them with their own fear and doubt in the stability of the body of humanity. The sources of their information are individuals no better off than themselves and create enemies out of individuals who are genuinely trying to help them.
I'm so confused and sad. On one hand I care so much for the community and truly believe in the potential of individuals who seek to understand the subtle workings of the universe, but on the other I have little patience for cancerous individuals who would rather witness the apocalypse or organize an outright revolution because they think the world is flat and the luxuries of the developed world just aren't good enough.
Its even worse when they speak in the place of individuals who they've never met on the opposite side of the globe as if they have experienced whatever atrocity they read about in the news first hand.