Last night, I meditated for 20 minutes, but it was a very...interesting experience. I've had trouble with the focal points I've been using, so I decided to make one. I took a yellow post it note, drew a pencil dot in the center, and stuck it on the back of the office chair at my desk, which is black. Then, I sat down and stared at the dot.
And thus the mind spanking began.
After a moment of meditating, I noticed the paper glowing. After a few more moments, I noticed the dot...moving
. Thinking it was my eyes, I got up and got my glasses.
I sat back down, focused again, and again...glowing, followed by the moving dot. And then, the dot disappeared entirely.
Huge logic fail. Major "glitch in the matrix!!!" moment.
It actually took me a minute to wrap my head around the fact that I had accidentally created an optical illusion sort of thing, and my eyes were literally playing tricks on me. However, this turned out to be a very useful tool for me. If my mind drifts, and I lose concentration from the dot, the dot disappears. That is, as was mentioned, a major "glitch in the matrix" sort of feeling. Thus, so that the dot doesn't vanish, I have
to concentrate on it. It led to some decent Trataka like practice, even with the whole no blinking thing. Which wasn't even intentional, just a side effect of staring and concentrating.
This morning, I meditated for 30 minutes, using the dot on the paper again. Again, the whole vanishing dot thing was a factor, but it turns out to be an interesting tool to force me to concentrate on the dot. It seems to like attention.