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Messages - Lakshmi

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Magick / Re: Hi and request for advice...
« on: January 21, 2016, 08:39:08 PM »
Heh heh - good point :)

I guess the questions would be: could this be real? And if so, how do I get rid of the negative energy / influence?

As for your questions, some of them are easier than others.

At the time.... I'd been feeling a lot of negativity from him for a long time. So, actually, my initial feeling after cutting ties was relief. So, if I did feel different at the time of the possible hex, it was better - at least initially.

As for my own practise - I've had good results for about 8 years (or rather, I had good results for 7 years, and nothing this last year).

I actually came to it from a position of complete scepticism. A friend of mine got into the Law of Attraction, and I was trying to explain to her why she was deluded, and she said, "just try it", so I did. But actually, back then I did everything "wrong" from a law of attraction perspective: a) I totally didn't believe, b) I chose something I thought could never happen and c) all I did was repeat, "I want X" over and over again in my head (apparently you aren't supposed to say "want", and you are supposed to use images rather than words, which I didn't know back then). But still it worked. Within an hour, I got the highly improbable thing I asked for.

 I was intrigued, so I tried it again - slightly less skeptically the next time. And again it worked, more or less immediately. So then I tried it, again, and again and again - and it always worked.

So, I was really curious - how could it possibly work? I got a lot of books, I looked into online forums. I learned I was doing it all "wrong", and that was the start of over-complicating... But, on the plus side, I did learn about meditation, visualisation, etc.

So, I was still getting pretty good results - still often amazing (10,000 out of nowhere - or at least, somewhere very unexpected - appearing in my bank account after one visualisation, a friend I hadn't heard from in ten years getting in touch the same evening after another, etc) - but less consistent.sometimes it wouldn't work, and these little niggles about exact phrasing and not thinking "I want" were messing with my head.

So I tried to learn more and more. I did a lot of void and focal meditations, visualisations, etc. But it was still hit and miss (sometimes amazing, sometimes not quite right... But always something) - and then I came across the person on that forum, who appeared to know it all, and promised fantastic results, blah blah - but, my association with him lasted about three months, and I didn't notice any improvement, and he was no help at all, so eventually I told him to skedaddle.

As for why it's important - that's the tricky question. Partly it's to do with meaning, and partly to do with maximising pleasure in this physical existence. I could meditate and be in bliss 24 hours a day, but that seems to me to miss the point of having a physical existence at all. If I'm not going to use and enjoy my body, and enjoy physical things and everything that comes with a physical existence (friendships, wealth, sex, health, food, experience, etc) then why be "alive" and have a body?

So, I guess it's important so that I make the most of this experience as a physical being. By which I mean enjoy it to the utmost. And minimise pain / displeasure / frustration. And have control as an active participant (by which I mean, I realise there is a path where you just accept everything and say it's all good - and I could do that. But it comes back to meaning - why observe a film when I could write, direct, act in it AND observe it?)

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Magick / Re: Hi and request for advice...
« on: January 21, 2016, 07:10:23 PM »
Thanks again Mind_Bender

I haven't spoken to / heard from him in about a year.

I didn't learn anything useful from him, all he did was tear me down. With little teasers, as if some great learning was around the corner, if I would prove myself a good / worthy student.

I'm pretty open-minded, and kept giving him the benefit of the doubt, but ultimately I thought, "this is bullshit and he is making me feel terrible", and, as I said, politely thanked him for his time, but said I needed to go my own way. I delete his contact details and all his emails.

I didn't think much about his threat at the time, but a big project, something that was really important to me, and which was already working when I told him to get lost - imploded. Went from miraculous result to complete failure in the space of 5 months. And nothing I have tried to recover it since has worked, nothing else in any other area works (not even small things), and - yes, if it's related, I've started aging (though some may say i should have started aging before, and so the last is entirely natural).

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Magick / Re: Hi and request for advice...
« on: January 21, 2016, 11:51:57 AM »
Oh... I don't know anything about astrology. How would that work?

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Magick / Re: Hi and request for advice...
« on: January 20, 2016, 11:49:54 PM »
Thanks Steve. I have tried that too, and genuinely nothing seems to work any more - not even the simplest things.

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Magick / Re: Hi and request for advice...
« on: January 20, 2016, 08:06:27 AM »
Thanks very much for the response Mind_Bender!

I do a lot of fitness and bodywork - daily runs, weightlifting, yoga and qigong.

That is also another potential side effect of this interaction - though I am not sure if it is a real side effect, or if I am finally starting to age.

I have always been very healthy, and have looked extremely young. Generally people have assumed that I am anywhere from 20 to 30 years younger than I am (I am not joking - about three years ago I was mistaken for a high school student - people were always amazed when they learned my age, and usually thought I was joking)

In the last year, my hair has started going grey, and I am getting a few wrinkles. That might have happened anyway, but it just seems weird that I should look so young for so many years, and then start to age after this encounter with this menacing person.

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Magick / Re: Hi and request for advice...
« on: January 20, 2016, 01:20:13 AM »
Okay, thanks :)

So, what happens when you perform the initiation ritual? Why would he stop smirking? (Specifically)

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Magick / Re: Hi and request for advice...
« on: January 19, 2016, 03:05:50 PM »
Dare I ask what happens when one performs the initiation ritual from Liber Pyramidos?

Btw - why are the rituals always in an ancient language? Would they lose power if translated into the mother tongue of the person performing the ritual?

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Magick / Re: Hi and request for advice...
« on: January 19, 2016, 10:09:58 AM »
I guess... I just find it hard to focus with all that smirking in the background, so I'd prefer just not to go there. He knows I'm not joining a cult :)

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Hello and Goodbye / Hi!
« on: January 19, 2016, 10:08:39 AM »
I don't know how I missed this board when I signed up - hello everyone!

I am a fairly long-time meditator, and am just generally interested in learning what works - and, ideally, if possible, why.

Very glad to meet you all :)

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Magick / Re: Hi and request for advice...
« on: January 19, 2016, 07:19:34 AM »
Nope. I've mentioned it from time to time, but he's so skeptical I'd prefer to just leave it (either indefinitely, or until such time as I have evidence that would satisfy his raging scepticism ;) )

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Magick / Re: Hi and request for advice...
« on: January 19, 2016, 06:36:07 AM »
Well, I'm married, and my partner and I run a business together - so, during the day I am either with him, or clients, and in the evenings I am with him or friends, and at night, when I am sleeping, I am with him. I can't even read something without having someone trying to read over my shoulder most times. But I can meditate, because no one can see inside my head :)

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Magick / Re: Hi and request for advice...
« on: January 19, 2016, 05:59:45 AM »
Thank you very much for the link Akenu. I have had a quick look, and will read in more detail shortly.

Just wanted to check - is there a risk of calling on entities like this, if you have no prior experience of it?

Also, I seldom get any time entirely to myself. Meditation is one thing, as no one I live with can see inside my head - but for any other ritual, finding time away from other's eyes will be difficult...

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Magick / Hi and request for advice...
« on: January 19, 2016, 02:05:28 AM »
Hello all -

I am a long-time meditator, with some experience success with visualisation and energy magic, but still consider myself very much a newbie (partly due to events below).

I have a question, and would appreciate some guidance.

Until about a year ago, I would not have believed in "hexes". And yet something has happened which has made me question that assumption, and find out what I can do to "clear the air" (whether it be real or imagined).

As I mentioned, I had a lot of success with visualisation and focused attention - some things seeming almost miraculous... Then I came across this person on a Law of Attraction forum, who claimed to know how to make any technique much better (faster, effortless, specific). After some months interacting with this person by email, I learned nothing new, but did sense a very dark energy (which is also something I wouldn't have believed in before, but I did feel it - there was something very sinister-feeling, even just in that electronic communication). He seemed to want to attract a cult following, and really just seemed to want to control people.

Ultimately I felt so uncomfortable with this person that I politely thanked him for his help, but said I needed to go my own way. He tried to contact me a few times, and ended with something to the effect that, without him, all my efforts would fail in future.

The thing in, I had a lot of success before meeting him. It was only after meeting him that things went pear-shaped. And now I can't seem to recover my former success -methods that worked reliably now seem to do very little or nothing.

Apologies for making my first post a request for help, but I don't really know what to do. I promise that if I get better at this, I will try to devote equal or greater effort to helping others who may face a similar problem.

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