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Hello and Goodbye / Re: Hello from San Diego, CA
« on: December 04, 2017, 02:03:27 AM »
Hey, welcome here (sorry for the late reply).


So, do you sell your artworks? I kinda like your coal game.

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Main Hall / Re: My oh my we are a sad little place
« on: December 04, 2017, 01:16:47 AM »
I'm quite glad I failed at lying to myself. Wish a bunch of other morons would do the same. Maybe we'd move past superstitious wishful thinking. This shit doesn't exist at all. No amount of pseudo science will validate occult stupidity. It's about the most pathetic thing in to world to actually take this crap serious. It really is a shame I wasted so much of my life being apart of it. Bunch of fucked up and useless people in the occult. Nothing but delusional human garbage. I'd say that if you believe in this crap you're an idiot. Time to grow up folks, quite the magical thinking and get own with your life.

The worst thing about the occult communities is the circle jerk they all engage in. Trying to validate empty beliefs, giving their sorry lives some false meaning. Sad, truly sad.


Hellblazer, if you remember, I was always against pseudo-scientific terms in occultism, it is BS, it looks stupid and it makes us look stupid. But I also hate your current behavior, simply because it might mean that Rayn was right.


If you remember, I have always said that anyone can learn Magick, we all have that gift. On the other side, Rayn's theory always was that only individuals gifted in Magick can learn it and now you are playing into his cards.


As for the magical thinking, I know about that, I knew about it for years prior to my start in occultism, I do have some psychology background. I don't get how attaining such information would make you totally invalidate all your prior experiences. It might actually mean that you just failed to have a journal, or, which is worse, you chased just fairy dust all those years...


@Rayn: To be more specific, I have started with Enochian Magick, dabbled a little bit into Hermeticism and Qabbalah, as well and finally landed in Chaos Magick.

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Main Hall / Re: My oh my we are a sad little place
« on: November 17, 2017, 12:43:52 PM »
You want to pass the blame on me? Really. It's nothing more than magical thinking. The only model of magick that's correct is the psychological one, because all you're doing is fucking with your head. There is no causal power in using dressed up affirmations and stupid rituals. Saying fancy words and using the imagination doesn't fix any of life problems. All systems of magick are nothing more than mental masturbation.


And you want to blame everyone else for your own failure? If you didn't succeed at something, it doesn't mean it is impossible, it just means you didn't succeed at it.

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Main Hall / Re: My oh my we are a sad little place
« on: November 17, 2017, 05:36:56 AM »
Yes. Because all of them are basically the same. It all depends on what decorations you want to put on it. That's it. Every system, every method, equally crap. All of them. Magic is the art and science of self-deception. Plain and simple. Eventually kids grow out of magical thinking, some adults can't. Just because you said some words and did some ritual does do shit in the real work, you just think it does. All those ghost and spirits are just a product of your imagination. Not a single occultist has any actual power. None. There is no God, no salvation, no hope, no reincarnation. No matter what the occultist aspires to it's bullshit. I have become very anti-theist, anti-paranormal, and anti-supernatural.


You don't know that ;-). That's the thing, Chris, you never tried that, you always said "that doesn't work, what I do works", and now you say that nothing works including what you did....


If what you do, didn't work, you would know if you have used proper methods, same as with the PSI wheel, you claim that nothing works, yet I see no actual work on your part. What you say is basically this:


Before
You don't need medicine to cure anything, all you need is green tea
Now
Medicine doesn't work, I tried and the green tea never cured anything for me.

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Main Hall / Re: My oh my we are a sad little place
« on: November 16, 2017, 01:12:52 PM »

It doesn't matter. Its all bullshit anyway.

Why are you even bothering to try and sell this crap to me anyway?


I am not trying to sell you anything, I am just wondering. All your previous posts regarding the "meat grinder", "finding what works" and things like that and now you say it's all bullshit. It makes me wonder, can you say it's all bullshit with a full certainty, considering you have actually never tried an authentic system and sticked with it?

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Main Hall / Re: My oh my we are a sad little place
« on: November 16, 2017, 09:46:02 AM »
Micro changes in the environment from body heat, static electricity, and micro movements of the hands can set a psi wheel moving, breathing does the same thing. So yes it is another case of confirmation bias.

Psychic abilities, ghost, etc do not exist. No one has any supernormal abilities. That's why we invent things to give us the illusion of power and control. Magick isn't real.


I remember there is an article regarding working with PSI wheel here on Veritas. The article mentions a couple of measure to get rid of external influences like
  • Being in a closed space
  • Being far enough from the PSI wheel
  • Having the PSI wheel in a closed glass container


There are more measure, but have you tried any of those?

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Main Hall / Re: My oh my we are a sad little place
« on: November 15, 2017, 08:25:46 AM »
All of it.


I remember you have messed with a PSI wheel before, so was that a confirmation bias, as well?

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Main Hall / Re: My oh my we are a sad little place
« on: November 13, 2017, 01:09:28 AM »
I think the biggest issue is that people want that "happy thought" kind of magick. The typical law of attraction b.s. which amounts to nothing more than cognitive and/or confirmation bias. They want to wish really hard and have everything handed to them with no effort. That doesn't work. I feel down that rabbit hole, its not a place anyone need be.

The most effective system is optimism and goal setting. That work if you have the will to achieve, but if you spend your life looking for super powers then you are wasting your time.


Hellblazer, I would swear that LOA was something you did practice some time ago and you did actually consider it very effective, that at least came up from our personal communication.
That was before I knew what confirmation bias was.




So, if you go through your records backwards, which of your results do you perceive as confirmation bias?

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Main Hall / Re: My oh my we are a sad little place
« on: November 06, 2017, 03:21:48 PM »
I think the biggest issue is that people want that "happy thought" kind of magick. The typical law of attraction b.s. which amounts to nothing more than cognitive and/or confirmation bias. They want to wish really hard and have everything handed to them with no effort. That doesn't work. I feel down that rabbit hole, its not a place anyone need be.

The most effective system is optimism and goal setting. That work if you have the will to achieve, but if you spend your life looking for super powers then you are wasting your time.


Hellblazer, I would swear that LOA was something you did practice some time ago and you did actually consider it very effective, that at least came up from our personal communication.

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Magick / Re: What are your magical pains & problems?
« on: November 06, 2017, 03:07:01 PM »
For me it was over-study and information-to-text ratio.


As for the over-study, my personal library contains hundreds of books (I am a collector), half of them are occult related and another half is the "rest" (historical books, classics, psychology related, medicine related, etc). I have read every single occult related book from beginning to end and in some cases like in the case of astrology encyclopedia, it was a very tiring experience, which brings me to the second point. Information-to-text ratio in occult books is horrible, you literally have to read pages to get one bit of useful information, usually said just from the eyes of the author and everything around that information is just decoration and fillers...


It also pains me that chaos magick doesn't get enough respect, especially because it is not enough "ancient" or "mystical", as opposed to those mystical grimoires written by Solomon, who obviously lived even in 17th century and wrote in English :-P.

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Magick / Re: Help needed?
« on: September 20, 2017, 12:40:32 PM »
hi,

probably you need grounding
http://forums.vsociety.net/index.php/topic,11138.0.html
excerpts above from the link

Grounding

Grounding is the act of 'recycling' impure energy on all planes of existence around oneself.  The process requires a quieted mind, so begin grounding with focal meditation. Acts of energy require intent as much as kinesis, so form a solid intent to cleanse the energy surrounding you on all planes. Locate a focal point within the soul and actualize this intent, dispelling all of the impurities, virtues, and preconceived concepts saturating the energy. Be thorough, and make sure the energy is completely pure and clean on all planes. The process may be repeated several times to ensure cleanliness, but try to be very deep and thorough about it.


That process is based on psionics and there are preliminary steps like "finding your soul". In other words, I do not think this can be useful right off the bat.

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Main Hall / Re: My oh my we are a sad little place
« on: September 18, 2017, 02:28:41 PM »
Wait, did Rayn just post a readable comment? How long have I been gone?  ???


Anyway, yes, scientific evidence so far is not exactly breath-taking and if you remember, in the past I have mentioned also some miscalculations in the statistics, namely wrongly calculated z-score. But also keep in mind, the research is still going and is underfunded so it takes time (and yes, there are more critical topics like medicine and renewable energy sources).

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Magick / Re: Help needed?
« on: September 16, 2017, 12:58:09 PM »
Hi! I'm back and... yeah... I'm getting a bit confused and maybe even frightened.  I think I need to do something but I don't know what.

1. Since I stopped "sending energy" to my friend he feels worse. Of course I still don't know if I helped him at all but maybe I did, since now that I stopped doing this he feels worse? He does not know what I did and does not know that I stopped so this is not a psychological effect :/

2. Today another strange thing occured. I was walking down the street and felt a really big pain on my belly. I looked under my t-shirt and saw two bloody bites there. And there was nothing there - no insect or anything - just two red bleeding dots. WTF? And just to add clarification - I live in a city not in the country and in my climate there is nothing (that I know of) that bites like this.  Maybe I'm becoming paranoic or something and I'm sure one can explain it like "Something must have bite you and flew away - it was probably just a wasp... but there are no wasps here and.... it just feels off".

3. I also have strange dreams from last week - like cataclysmic tornados (there were 3 of them moving towards me) or about vomiting black goo-like substance or beeing attacked by a big black spider (i have arachnophobia) or other nightmares.

F**k. I'm getting tired of this and yet I can't stop thinking about breathing energy and sending it to other people. It's like an addiction?

Two days ago I told my wife about what I think this bad luck is and that I was "healing" our friend. She was not happy about it and after a small argument she told me "why won't you help me if you can?" - she has a depression (like a real one). That same night when she was sleeping I just did the same thing I did last time (but this time I was thinking about using energy from inside me - not the stars, because you wrote that I should not take too much raw energy, so I thought I will just use the one that is in me). I was lying and thinking about giving her energy to feel better and stay positive and focused and to let her feal love and that she is loved and there is peace and she has a strength and so on). Guess what? Next day she woke up happy and with a smile (she does not know I did this!) and she pick up a phone and started calling people to start a project that she was supposed to start like a half a year ago but could not because she was so depressed that she though nothing mattes.

So there it is. It all seems to just... work... but at the same time I feel like I'm getting a string of unprobable unfortunate events as a payback. I also can't stop thinking about it. It seems my body just wants to draw energy from everything (especially sky/air/stars) with every breath. I'm really lost and I don't know anymore if I'm imagining things and this are all just coincidences or if this is real.

Please help!


If you want to stop, you should. If you want to continue, you should start studying, the decision should be made as soon as possible.

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Main Hall / Re: My oh my we are a sad little place
« on: September 16, 2017, 03:16:12 AM »
You know. There are more important things to do in life that masturbating to your magical thinking.


Oh, definitely, there are also more important things than brushing your teeth, yet you do it each day and more than once.

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Magick / Re: Help needed?
« on: September 15, 2017, 04:21:50 AM »
IIH is definitely a good start, but also a very complex book. Most people give up very early and it is actually hard to keep up with the practice. The book was intended this way to keep out the "unworthy". Unfortunately times have change and most of us do not have the luxury of time required to cope with IIH.

Which books would you recommend instead then, if any?
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Tough choice. Well, I did write a couple of books on the topic, but I would rather recommend to go free-roaming. Try things here and there and see what clicks for you. If the OP wants to follow some book, then e.g. NAP is simple to follow, then in terms of Chaos Magick, there is of course this: https://ultraculture.org/blog/2015/11/13/psychonaut-field-manual/ which is nicely illustrated, or you can pick one of my books.




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