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Are you aware of how many people in the pagan/new age/occult movement are weird about medication? I thank you for your pro-medication stance. That's great. Just because I have real talent in bending spoons and forks. I need to back up my phone and I will eventually post some pictures of the psychokinesis. I really have spent 5 years treated by now. I started my current meds in 2012. My mother was quite unable to interfere with me getting treatment. She isn't paying for it, SSI is.


I mean I might have to gravitate in anti-medication circles because of my specific skill set. Give or take, that is frustrating for me because I will be given #%% for taking meds. I tell them my meds are an angry and jealous god, don't offend it. I also want to flat out tell people I don't take people telling me not to take my meds lightly. How else am I supposed to sleep at night and drive during the day? I need to tell the idiots to talk to my lawyer. I need to get myself a lawyer who knows about those people. I mean I think my psi talent is easier to put up with because of my medication in the first place. Nobody wants a manic empath-telepath around anyway. I'm an expert on this stuff. The reason is simple. Empaths can infect people with their emotions if they are unshielded. This is why shielding is good for you. You can't be pushed around by your psychic ability. An empath can infect people with depression. Yes. That is why taking your meds is great. As in, mania can also be felt by others. And I speak from personal experience when I say mania is annoying to others. A friend of mine skipped her meds twice in two months. She is being systematically avoided right now. She hangs on to toxic people like a barnacle. I get rid of them fast but she doesn't. She lets them in with open arms. I'm fed up. I take my meds. It is the only way. Thanks for being pro-medication! I'm impressed.
Yeah, I'm aware of it, and I think its a pretty bad problem.  I'm lucky enough to have medicare to cover my meds, what I take now is probably worth about $3,000. Now I only pay about $5.

I'm looking for a way off disability and onto Anthem Blue Cross. I think we both have a whole lot of balls talking about this out in the open. I have methods to deal with anti-medication nutters. One phrase I find handy is: talk to my lawyer. If they say anything implying I need to stop, well then, you will be dealing with my Legal Shield lawyers. Ha-ha!!!


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I'm glad you got the treatment you needed. I also started treatment about five or six years ago. The problem is that I only recently, about a year ago, got on the medicine that works for me. Mostly because I never told my psychiatrist that the medicine wasn't working because I thought medicine wasn't supposed to help. But now I know that that's what its made to do, you just need to be on the right kind.

I know from many years experience that when a med craps out on you, it is time to find a new one. Immediately. Somebody I know is putting this off. I sent her a letter with "Get a med change or I'm done." It probably got to her. She gets no privacy. Asian thing. Her parents are very intrusive. She's around my age and only because she lives on their property. But then again her psychopath dad does stuff to the tenants messing with their things. Illegal landlord-tenant manipulation. He also poisons her mom on a regular basis. I'm distancing myself from her. I'm on the look out for more blunt friends who are truthful without hurting people's feelings.


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This is the first year in the past four years I haven't had a breakdown or felt suicidal at all. But that's not the only benefits I've had from taking the right medicine. My thoughts are more calm, I can sleep at night, I can socialize in public without shutting down, I don't hear or see things that aren't there anymore, everything is just a lot easier in general. Without being properly treated, I would be dead or in an asylum by now. So I know the importance of medication, and I hope other people in the community can learn of its importance as well.


I've been also stable 5 years now. I love my medication. Love it. I sing its praises. I park really well. My driving is flawless. I mean one of my odd psychic talents as a schizophrenic is to know when people are going to step in front of cars in an attempt to kill themselves. I can see it all in my head. Even if that person is miles from me. I can't always rescue everybody though. My abilities have an off switch these days. I'm a real psychokinetic. I messed up my printer. The cover for the paper tray. It can't fit properly anymore. I melted it. I have bent my nail filer. The nail scraping part. I also am bending daily the curtain rod above this computer in my condo. Someday it might break apart and fall down. My other curtain rod is not bent. It is by the kitchen table. I eat there. I have no idea why it hasn't happened again, aside from spending less time at the kitchen table. My parents have left the country. They have a bunch of untreated MI, and personality disorders. You don't do therapy to lie. You do therapy to improve yourself.

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I think this is an important question. Hence why I'm necro-posting. For the longest time I believed medication would interfere with my ability to practice anything and I refused to take it. I want to say to anyone with any mental problems with these preconceptions, take the medication. It helps so much more than it harms, most importantly it helps you maintain a functionally healthy mental state and life in general.

And as kobok has said, in the case of schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder it can hinder your practices untreated. That isn't to say you can't see results from your practice with schizophrenia, I did see some with a decent amount of practice and effort. But most importantly, seek help if you need it. Your mental health is more important than many people realize. It may take time to find the right medication for you, but they have something that will work for your problems if you've been properly diagnosed.


Are you aware of how many people in the pagan/new age/occult movement are weird about medication? I thank you for your pro-medication stance. That's great. Just because I have real talent in bending spoons and forks. I need to back up my phone and I will eventually post some pictures of the psychokinesis. I really have spent 5 years treated by now. I started my current meds in 2012. My mother was quite unable to interfere with me getting treatment. She isn't paying for it, SSI is.


I mean I might have to gravitate in ant-medication circles because of my specific skill set. Give or take, that is frustrating for me because I will be given #%% for taking meds. I tell them my meds are an angry and jealous god, don't offend it. I also want to flat out tell people I don't take people telling me not to take my meds lightly. How else am I supposed to sleep at night and drive during the day? I need to tell the idiots to talk to my lawyer. I need to get myself a lawyer who knows about those people. I mean I think my psi talent is easier to put up with because of my medication in the first place. Nobody wants a manic empath-telepath around anyway. I'm an expert on this stuff. The reason is simple. Empaths can infect people with their emotions if they are unshielded. This is why shielding is good for you. You can't be pushed around by your psychic ability. An empath can infect people with depression. Yes. That is why taking your meds is great. As in, mania can also be felt by others. And I speak from personal experience when I say mania is annoying to others. A friend of mine skipped her meds twice in two months. She is being systematically avoided right now. She hangs on to toxic people like a barnacle. I get rid of them fast but she doesn't. She lets them in with open arms. I'm fed up. I take my meds. It is the only way. Thanks for being pro-medication! I'm impressed.

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The Cafeteria / Re: Can psychokinesis set off alarms?
« on: April 04, 2017, 08:19:30 AM »
Something has hijacked your synchronicity. You need to assert independence.

http://docdro.id/a2bZVPW

Thanks. I mean this happened months ago, before my parents moved. I felt my mother's energy somehow sabotaged the alarm or maybe she did it deliberately. In my family, its either or. I have since spent the last six months being very independent. I'm on my own.

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The Cafeteria / Can psychokinesis set off alarms?
« on: August 18, 2016, 01:53:46 PM »
Yesterday my three emergency alarms were set off. Police, fire, and emergency. Then it was just the cops. The ADT guys are here fixing the alarm by now. So it occurred to me if it wasn't the fairies, or maybe it was the fairies, it could have been a spirit or just random psychokinesis. My debit card misreads or demagnetizes when I'm ungrounded. So I have to blow on it or rub it on clothing to get it to work. It doesn't matter how many new debit cards I get, I still have this happen. So getting a new card is pointless and time consuming. It takes a week to show up anyway. Psychokiensis is a possibility I hadn't thought of. Maybe a spirit used it to set off my alarms. Thoughts?

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Psionics / Psychic Attack
« on: August 02, 2016, 04:48:51 PM »
My mother is someone capable of using psi. She does it to manipulate people mostly. She also does it to brainwash people. Aside from that I have seen unethical uses of psi most of my life from both parents. I wanted to hear about psychic attack and combat. They feed and try to dump MI symptoms since they both have concurrent mental illness symptoms. I will have to learn some better combat skills if I'm going to keep their energy away. I have three servitors and one complains steadily. They continually cut the cords of attachment. Fortunately both parents are leaving the country. My dad is merely going where the money goes. Mom wants to return to her family of origin. I can't say where for my safety. But you guys have some idea. Europe. Spanish. That's too strong of a hint. At least I have a screen name for my safety. Not that she knows where to look. Nobody say the country for goodness sake. I see two mentally ill people who are about to crash and burn. My tarot readings say they will get caught. The heat is frying my brain right now. I got the Death card. Change. Something massive will come. A bad psychotic break perhaps that will cure them of shared delusion. I might wind up having to call 911. Fortunately, we have buttons for that. It will be merely pressing a button. I have turned into a most ethical psionic user since starting my meds. I love my meds very much. Okay, so if anybody can teach me more about psychic combat, I'm ready.

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Magick / Re: Lost all faith
« on: July 29, 2016, 04:28:04 PM »
Hellblazer, I wish I could give you my faith. My faith in magick is unshakeable. You could almost say it's like having my faith in myself. Going to my Toastmasters meetings really does help me figure out what my true self is. I've been a Toastmaster since 2013. It's a bit further away now but I like going on a good day. You need to find your faith in magick again. Find your faith in magick.  It's more than okay to believe. Forget what skeptics tell you. I'm pretty good at the intrinsic magick/manifestation stuff. I'm fantastic at it. My brain manifests awesome parking spots. I have at least 8 or 9 business plans written. I have to write them all because I have a list of 72 ideas. All are written down. I think you need to have faith in yourself, because my family tried to destroy that too but I have surpassed all of it. Hellblazer, take a day off from driving yourself nuts, and believe. Magick is somewhat about faith. The stronger your will, the more your spell is driven by it. I will think happy thoughts about you and hope you find faith again. Unfortunately, it seems it is all about faith. Your loss of faith worries me.

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Magick / Re: Lost all faith
« on: July 28, 2016, 06:00:30 AM »
Yet our experience of reality is based on our perspective of it. Our mental standpoint. Does drawing upon the white light of the divine goddess actually mean that you've drawn in some cosmic energy? Are is it the effect of the intention and visualization coupled with expectation that allow you to invoke the dopamine spirit?
Similar to the 'astral senses' they are self generated audiotory, visual, tactle, and olfactory hallucination.

The problem with the occult arts is confirmation bias.

More and more I think on it, if you need faith and belief to make it work, it doesn't work.

Have you ever read Christopher Penczak? In the Inner Temple of Witchcraft, the man says he was a skeptic. It works without faith. Magick really does work. I mean, he didn't have much faith in it at first. Think about it that way before you slip into the loss of faith some more.

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There's nothing about schizophrenia that conflicts with psi in a truly fundamental sense, since schizophrenia is fundamentally a disease of the brain and psi is fundamentally an ability of the soul.  However there is a very severe problem that active schizophrenia makes it almost impossible to practice psi. 


I didn't get adequate knowledge or training from the ages of 12-15. I should have been on pediatric bipolar meds at 12. I didn't get those either. My illness was not treated properly until 2012. I have been mostly stable these four years. I have an abundance of psychic ability. There is a list. You might say I have physical mediumship if you take my telekinesis/psychokinesis into account.

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And without practice, psi is generally of very little utility or impact.  This severe difficulty in practice happens because the inability to correctly assess what is real disrupts the essential feedback process in psi practice.  You have to actually know when you are successful to make forward progress.  This appears to be such a severe problem that at present I do not recommend anyone with active schizophrenia attempt to practice psi.  It is likely to just cause more confusion.

I can now control my psi because of consistent medication taking. My brain was previously disorderly but right now I'm getting A papers in every Greyschol class I'm taking. I have not failed a single paper. This means I'm writing coherently and getting decent grades.


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If with medication (or future medications not yet developed) one is able to get schizophrenia completely or mostly under control, then practice of psi might be a reasonable and interesting pursuit.  But I would advise against it while symptoms are still active.

My schizophrenia, bipolar, and OCD are all in total control with my meds. I'm pretty much well-treated. It is up to me to make money and get my Free Soul self-paced classes going. I need to blow $29.95 apparently. If I make money, I can so do that. Thanks!

Sekhmet

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I'm looking for a knowledgeable person who might understand psychic ability as it pertains to also being genuinely on the schizophrenia spectrum. I'm schizoaffective bipolar 1 OCD and I'm a tele-empath. How confusing is that? Very. I love my medication for giving me a buffer. I'm also psycokinetic and can bend spoons, forks and keys. I will have to figure out how to post pictures of my spoons from my phone. Here's at least one. Everywhere I go, I bend silverware. I'm scared to go to the silverware section of any department store by myself. My psi might go off. I spend my life hoping nobody notices but on the other end I wish I could get the randi prize already. He's just a chronic debunker who will never believe. It might never happen. Thanks guys.

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Main Hall / Re: My mom's future psi attacks
« on: June 24, 2016, 12:51:54 PM »
Sekhmet, shouldn't this be in Cafeteria?


My mistake. I haven't been around in too long. 

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Main Hall / My mom's future psi attacks
« on: June 24, 2016, 08:38:52 AM »
I know that when my parents leave, my mother is going to throw psi attacks. So I will shield my condo quite carefully with a bunch of citrine around my bedroom. Also, I have my angels and black tourmaline. My parents are officially retiring in Spain. I have no leave date and no move-in date. I want to start a non-hierarchical occult study group in my condo. I want to have a ritual room and my boyfriend is not moving in any time soon. So for any Veritas folks in the SF Bay Area, feel free to PM me.

I'm trying to figure out how mom's psychic attack will work. I am thinking it will be energy bursts. I made three servitors to cut the cords automatically. I also use mirror shields daily. I avoid her inside the house. I will simply not be home a lot when we move to the condo. There is a whole mall to explore in the neighborhood. I'll be okay.

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Steve,

I have to inform you that they got back together. I think I might be able to take care of what he does to her energy body. For some reason, she's happy despite his temper. She let a bully back into her friends list and the thing is, that's because the bully is an untreated bipolar/borderline who doesn't know anything about boundaries.

Scary? I said this bully could be violent but thankfully her ex agrees and she told me he said something similar. In which case, I already predicted the bully would bring up mental illness out of place at a party. Guess what? She did exactly what I predicted she would do. How right am I most days? I have found peace with my psychic talents by now. I have decided not to deny it and to try to accept the fact that I have kinesis with objects as well as metals. I'm a real tele-empath and I put up with the clairs in different formats. Oberon Zell-Ravenheart of Greyschool.com helped me come to terms with the fact that my psychic ability is real. I will keep you updated.

Let's see how right I will be. My friend is very stable. Her dad messes with her meds but she learned to keep them on her person at all times. He was switching fresh meds with bad meds. Bad meds can make one paranoid. Good meds keep all symptoms under control. I am thrilled with my meds because I have a lot of respect for chemicals that keep me asleep during loud mariachi music. For those of you who do not know, mariachi music is of Mexican origin and very loud and repetitive. I slept through a whole night of it once at my boyfriend's. Anyway, Steve, thanks for mentioning the cords. I made myself three servitors for my own problems with cords that come from my mother that attach to me. I have to be constantly vigilant. Thanks,

Sekhmet

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Magick / Re: Inner Magick Vs External Magick
« on: May 21, 2016, 04:17:08 PM »
There's a VAST world out there that you can continually throw magic at and never perfect, mostly because the next generation of people will just come along and fuck it all up again ;) And then there's You, the being that you'll be spending the rest of your life with. If you can't change your own life for the better, how can you hope that all the magic you're throwing at 7 billion people is truly helping them out?

Of course, I could be biased as I started with internal, and only sought external proof for a couple of reasons (first, to give stronger potential validity to the stories in the bible, since they treated magic as a real thing, and secondly to verify that I wasn't insane when I started seeing real magical results).

~Steve


Looks like I'll be writing a whole book on intrinsic magick because that's what Amber K calls it. I realize I'm an old pro at intrinsic because I recently bound somebody with words only. I heard the person backed off consistently which is odd for a  borderline/bipolar who keeps going long after the fact.

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Hey Sekhmet, welcome back. You seem to be dealing really well with a lot of things. Congrats on that :)

Regarding the topic at hand, did you have a specific question in mind, or just want as much information as possible regarding stopping the guy's influence on your friend?

I'm looking for ways of stopping his influence. My advice to her was 1) get angry at him, don't fall for his fake apology because he will just lose his temper again. 2) Cut the cords of attachment because he is messing with her energetically as well. 3) He's a telepath like I am, a bit more than just an empath. He is messing with her fundamental energy structure. I heard from a mutual friend that on New Year's she was acting like a junkie who needed her fix so this mutual friend let her ditch to go hang out with the douche bag.


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My basic advice would be distraction. Get her involved in something else, which is hopefully healthy for her, to the point where she can ignore the boyfriend, or at least put him off for a while. So long as she can put him out of her mind for a while, she will eventually be able to break the associations with him. The second piece of advice would be to make sure she's aware of her infatuation with his smell; she might like it, but so long as she's consciously aware that it's manipulating her mind and feelings, then she should be able to fight the feelings it generates within her.

I'm writing a book on Bullies and Manipulators. I'm also writing my business plans. My fiction needs an editor real bad. So I suggested she edit my fiction. I have her as co-author for my non-fiction. I wrote up a contract. I'm way ahead of schedule actually, which is good. I love my medication very much for keeping me productive and stable.

As for the douche bag's energy field, she plans on distracting herself with friends. She did mention this older guy is losing his looks. Attractive men, I should note, go through misery. They get a lot of attention. I heard he flirted with waitresses who ignored him which is what qualifies as sexual harassment. I think I have told her what I can in phone messages about how to cope with the feelings. She gets sugar cravings on top of the douche bag cravings. I have managed to tell her to have cheese for the sugar cravings and to not take the douche bag cravings seriously. I heard he threw a knife at some point. I can't say for sure if that information is valid or not. She decided to break up with him two nights ago now. He was screaming at her in the car, calling her a moron and an idiot. I think she's definitely looking into another guy who will be more rational, and mellow. Her douche bag has bipolar but he's not on meds. He takes an herbal. He's also a functional alcoholic who got her into drinking. I think I can cut her cords of attachment and hooks. I have some skill in that although I'm still fairly ignorant about things. I don't know everything. I have no certifications as of this time.


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Lastly, if you're okay with it, put up a psychic barrier around her and pull his hooks out of her. Protect her from his psychic influence for a while. It won't get him the help he needs, but it will help your friend.

~Steve

I asked my Deities to protect my friend from him. She is not interested in cursing him but me and our mutual friend are pagan so we feel the need to bind the douche bag at least.

Oh yeah, Steve, these days, I have a strict computer curfew. It shuts off at 5 or 6. 5 is also TV time. If I feel too wound up, I don't watch TV. Fictional tension makes me manic sometimes. I'm totally in control of my health though. Everything is treated and I'm waiting to hear back from Safeway about potential jobs. I did fracture a bone in my knee and dislocated my knee cap in yoga. I'm keeping busy though without my gym as a distraction. My parents are supposedly leaving the country eventually. For now it feels like all talk. I look forward to being on my own. I have plans to turn a second bedroom into a ritual room where I can take my practice seriously. I have many interests in witchcraft as well as the mundane.

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I haven't been around in a long time. I have a complex situation though. A friend of mine is dating a guy who she has to break up with constantly because of his temper. He is undiagnosed bipolar. Or at least he knows but doesn't take his meds. He is controlling, mean, and abusive. She likes him. She likes his energy. At first she put a positive spin on his temper tantrums by saying she enjoys it because it meant she's free from passive-aggressive idiocy. Of course, passive-aggressive people who don't tell me they are mad at me really bothers me. I stay away from people like that. They get the boot really fast.

My friend's friend is aware of his effect on people. One of my bizarre psychic talents is smelling pheromones. Pregnant women throw me into a tizzy. Its because they have two energy fields. Pheromones are what attracts people to people. It is all a chemical response given by the body. Scary right? Any time you think somebody is hot, that's a biochemical reaction, nothing more. Chemistry is the basis of attraction. My friend's ex-again apologizes and lures her back. Typically abusive relationship. This time she might be done for good. I cautioned her to quit taking his apologies. The thing is, he manipulates her on a psychic level too. She's hooked on his energy. I heard from a mutual friend that she was acting like a junkie on New Year's and she ditched an old friend to hang out with the douche bag. I call him that because his energy puts me off and I have barely met the guy. By now, I have some nifty mental health diagnoses. I'm on great meds. I also have better habits like a computer curfew that I implement on or before 7 p.m. PST Daylight savings and 5 p.m. during Standard time. I don't stay up late on line anymore. I hopped on here to get some advice about pheromone addiction.

I heard that her boyfriend would lift his arm pit and waft his pheromones all over the room. She would get hooked on smell alone. I think he's a calculating predator who knows what he is doing. He is a telepath like me, not just an empath. I'm an empath-telepath. I also know who douche bags are real fast. I can determine who is a jerk very quickly, male or female. I got rid of frenemies.

In other news, my parents are leaving the country. I will be living in a condo. I want to turn the condo into a ritual space. I live in the SF Bay Area. I basically want to turn the second bedroom in the condo into a ritual room. I stand up to shebeast daily and my dad needs a hearing aid/sleep apnea mask neither of which he is making an effort on getting. I have proof my dad is a sociopath. My mom is in therapy, finally, and it is somewhat improving her. I dislocated my knee cap, a ligament, and had a fracture in yoga one day. I have been out a while but the thing is, I'm finding time to finish my Greyschool.com as well as to finish my business plans, and learn new skills. I'm looking for a job. Safeway might go for me but I'm not sure yet because of my knee. Every illness I have is under control. My diabetes management is excellent. I'm on a quest to nail perfect blood sugars. I want to reverse diabetes using insulin and cinnamon pills. I am close. I'm not always perfect though. I can get to 161 mg/dl and then I'm high. I'm trying to make friends with it instead of be adversarial. I'm doing great and I'm about to get a job with said Safeway. Thanks for teaching me a lot guys, this website is a huge resource. I do not want to participate too often as I'm on the schizophrenia, bipolar and OCD spectrums but I will definitely be occasionally logging in. I learn a lot from you guys! I like the new layout.

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