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My first question is, why are you feeling surges of negative energies in the first place?
I may be wrong, but that doesn't seem normal. I don't see why that should be happening to you, unless you are being attacked, or perhaps your residence is particularly afflicted with negative energies. I understand that to some degree that people accumulate remnant negative energies from daily life, but it's negligible from what I understand, usually not enough to cause -serious- problems.
But you mention it comes from within, which adds an interesting twist to this question. Are you sure you aren't just becoming aware of your own negative energies during meditation? Are you sure it's not just the normal activity of your own spirit?
There are spirits of all kinds, but they all can be examined in terms of polarity: those that are negative are often called demons, those that are positive are often called angels, but humans, by majority, are mixed, or in-between beings. Many esoteric practitioners like to assert that humans are naturally beings of light and goodness - which is simply not true.
So I would advise that you first make sure you are not just becoming aware of your own spiritual activity, rather than you experiencing surges of unwarranted or harmful negative energy.

Now if that's something that you don't like or want, then of course you may change that. However, if there is some natural darkness to your spirit, then simply trying to expel it through meditation will not be enough, because it will always return. In order to get rid of it, you need to change the structure of your spirit, and that means examining your character and changing it.
You mentioned having fights/arguing with others, and that is a good place to start :P
Being combative/argumentative is a negative trait, so unless you desire some negativity in your spirit(which is ok for some people), than you will need to adjust your character. And if you seek to completely purge yourself of negativity, than you will need to examine your character in it's entirety, and make changes accordingly.
But again, you only need to do this if you do not wish to have any dark/negative activity in your spiritual composition. However even if you don't mind some negative composition, I would suggest practicing self control and exercising mastery over any negative traits you have, to put yourself in control over your emotions and character, rather than -you- being controlled by -them-. Make sense? :P

BUT - if you think these surges of negative energy do not belong to your natural composition and are problematic, than I will give you some other advice.

Here, I will describe a simple method of drawing out negative energies that is quite common amongst western magicians, and solves your concern of the negative energy lingering around and causing other problems.
The "Water" element is a naturally magnetic force that is very useful in drawing things out. And this is why water is often used in cleansing and purifying rituals(like baptism for example).
But for you, you only need a sink with which to wash your hands.
Now, all you do is simply wash your hands, but while doing so, concentrate intensely and imagine that the water is not only cleansing your hands, but drawing the negative energies from your body as well. Imagine that all this negative energy is being drawn with the water and runs off with it.
Now, this -MUST-  be done with cold water. Water loses its attractive power when it is warm.

With this method, the negative energy goes away with the water, so you need not fear it lingering around causing trouble.

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The same thing happens when out of nowhere I feel a "dark omen", or a dark odic force, like "there is something wrong". Later, something bad always happens (it's random. It can be a car problem, something in my house breaks, I have a fight with someone, etc).

Now if this is true, you may simply be experiencing some intuition/enhanced perception. If you are new to spiritual practices, than you may be experiencing some natural abilities beginning to show themselves - Intuition and expanded perception being a very common ability that shows up.
Of course, also make sure that it isn't just your mind connecting unrelated events.
Ask yourself, how often are you correct about these feelings? Are you ever wrong? If so how often?
If you are often more wrong then you are right, than perhaps its just in your head. However, if you are right far more than wrong, perhaps you are experiencing some intuition.

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I think we have a hard time dealing with the chaotic nature of the universe. But, is the universe really chaotic, or is everything causality?

I, and many other magicians, tend to hold a view that the universe, with all its components(light/dark, chaos/order, etc), is perfect. Everything that exists, does so for a reason, nothing is truly wrong or right, nothing exists mistakenly.
Is the universe truly chaotic? That depends what you mean.
The universe, with all its attributes and mechanisms, is a rather perfect system. Chaos, negativity and Darkness, are just as important as Light and positivity. Neither is better than the other, neither is more "correct".

I would say that the universe is balanced for the most part, or perhaps "harmoniously chaotic". Yes, the universe is chaotic in many ways, but that is the way it is supposed to be. But is it not also harmonious and peaceful in many other ways?

But this really depends on what you consider chaos. Chaos, as a principle, belongs to the negative "Earth" Element. It is simply the breakdown of order, the disruption of harmony.  But most people don't mean this when they talk about the "chaos of the universe". So what are you imagining when you say the universe is chaotic? What do you mean when you refer to it?

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(I tend to be a bit skeptic, I'm sorry).

That's nothing to be sorry about.
I would even encourage some healthy skepticism. Just make sure it is healthy and reasonable, and not naive and dogmatic :P


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Hello and Goodbye / Re: Hi from NY
« on: April 01, 2018, 12:16:48 AM »
Welcome Julio, and also الظلام
 :)

Oh, thanks :)

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Magick / Re: Exorcism
« on: March 21, 2018, 12:20:34 AM »
Unless you are somewhat already trained in some system of magic, I do not think there is some "exorcism recipe " that someone could throw together for you to use that could work. I could be wrong though, exorcism isn't a particular interest of mine.

If you sincerely believe you have a need for an exorcist, then you should ask a nearby diocese of the Catholic Church, if you have one.
In many places(Ireland for example) each diocese is required to have at least one exorcist trained.

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Main Hall / Re: Donations needed to pay for Veritas hosting!
« on: March 17, 2018, 02:06:50 PM »
Our every-two-year hosting bill has come around again for this month.  Thanks to the contributions of several members signing up for referral accounts over the past two years, and a generous donation from Koujiryuu we are very close to the amount of the bill.

I'd just like to take this moment to remind everyone that the following donation link is still active, and that everything donated is applied directly to the hosting bill that keeps this community online and running:

http://www.dreamhost.com/donate.cgi?id=11729

Any amounts donated in excess of the amount needed right now are automatically applied to the next hosting bill, and thus every donation purchases further longevity for this site.  Thanks again to everyone who has contributed so far, and thanks to anyone who clicks the link and donates more.

Is this still the correct donation link?
And how is the bill situation currently?

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Hello and Goodbye / Re: Hi from NY
« on: March 17, 2018, 01:12:08 PM »
Hello.
The first step I feel anyone should take to take control of their life, whether they are occultists, magicians, etc. or not, is to meditate. There is a reason meditation is very important in essentially all forms of magic, spiritualities, mystical paths, etc.

I know it sounds very cliche, but I'm not telling you to meditate out of some religious, new age, fluffy, or other mystical perspective - I'm simply telling you out of a stance of practicality.

People lead lives as slaves to their emotions - dominated by them, hurt by them, blinded by them, and so on.

Meditation is a way of pulling yourself out of the battleground of your mind, so you may properly reason, solve your problems, have an objective perspective, and simply have control over your life and emotions, instead of the other way around.

If you are truly experiencing some form of extrasensory perception, than all the more important you develop through meditation and get a good reign on your mind.
These "gifts" can easily drive people mad. Indeed, some so called "schizophrenics" and other types of patients locked away in mental wards are actually just people losing it due to these "gifts".

However, don't let me scare you, as your reaction to your new experience seems quite healthy, many others would not fare so well :P

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Magick / Re: Question about IIH`s thoughtless meditation.
« on: March 17, 2018, 10:16:37 AM »
Rawiri is correct.
However, if there is still some confusion, here is a simplification of the thought control exercises:

"Thought control" : this is about learning to gather your focus, and learning to not allow your thoughts to distract your focus.
In practice, You observe your thoughts, but do not engage them or allow them to break your focus. You watch your thoughts objectively, but let them slip away.

"Thought discipline": this exercise helps further separate you from your thoughts, by giving you deeper control and increasing your power of concentration.
In practice, you take a single thought/image/idea, and focus on it entirely. Do not waver from it.

"Thought mastery": this is the final step in separating you from your thoughts. With this exercise, you essentially learn to separate your consciousness or "you", from the thoughts of your intellect.
In practice, you passively "focus" by observing the stillness of your mind. You should have no thoughts whatsoever. If a thought comes, then dismiss it.

It's about learning to be in a thoughtless state. You do not necessarily focus on anything, except the nothingness of your mind. That's why it's often called "Void meditation" because "Void" = nothingness.

Though many of the answer here were great already, I hope this gives a clear picture so you are not confused.

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There are a few reasons I can think of off the top of my head.
1. Projecting from the body may "taint" the fluids you are projecting into the talisman, like a personal signature on the fluids(which is fine for yourself, but not others)

2. You may not wish to load your own body with fluids and deal with the possible consequences. When you load directly from the universe, you don't have to deal with purging any leftover energy in your body, or upsetting the balance or equipoise of your own spirit/astral body.

*I've read through that section in the IIH since I initially answered and revised it accordingly, however I still cannot pinpoint the exact reason. I think my first point is close, though I'm just not sure in the details. Whether it is related to karma or personal energies involved, I'm *pretty* confident that I'm in the ball park :P

I'm not quite sure what you mean by creating fluids directly with the imagination, because either way, you are technically always drawing from the universe. You cannot "create" new fluid, only intensify the fluid in whatever your target is.

From my understanding, when magicians usually work with these fluids, like say the elemental accumulations that you may have read about in the IIH, you are not quite "literally" creating energy or taking it from the universe, but rather "intensifying" the force/principle.
I remember someone asking Prophecy(I think) "why don't these energies run out due to their usage by magicians?", and his answer was along the same lines of what I have just told you.

Say I was accumulating Apas, the water element.
I would of course imagine myself breathing it in, feeling myself getting colder with each breath, then the element would - due to the sympathetic connection between my imagination and the fluid in question- intensify its presence within my body with each breath.
Did I just create energy? Did I just steal energy from the universe?
No, I only intensified the principle/force of the fluid.
The only way for a magician to actually deal with the fluids in a literal or "physical" way, is to work within the celestial sphere, which I hear is very difficult and impractical.



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Though I'm not quite big on the term "biokinesis", the act of manipulating the body in such subtle ways as you described are actually quite low on the totem pole of what's possible, honestly.
Recently I've been using a particular hermetic method to keep my face pretty and scar free.
But I haven't undertaken any serious or ambitious tasks regarding body modification. Still, I know that virtually anything is possible if you have the means and methods(though "possible" is not the same as probable).

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