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« on: August 18, 2009, 07:59:49 PM »
Been a long time since I posted in this thread.. But the experience still sits uncomfortably with my rational - skeptical mind.
My explanation of my experience was rather weak and could easily draw innacurate conclusions.
I have never tried to invoke anything, never mind a experience so incredible.. how can one invoke that which one does not know.. surley that is no more than an imaginitve creation, potentially enabled by subconscious connectivity.
I had been following what I could only term a process or a method of learning the permitted as much sychronicity as possible.
Yet I still fail to explain to mysef in any manner why:
Out of nowhere while performing a meaningless every day action of walking to a cupboard, that I, a now one, who had acepted absolute nothingness as the probably the absolute realisation of what lies bellow any conditioned reality.
Suddenly >
Vanished and merged completley into/with something akin to a whitish light/love.. that I understood myself and everything in a perfect sense, that I felt a love I have yet to experience again, that everything was connected with emotional transference with greater clarity than everything I have ever read, that after this happened I felt transformed, the experience eminated from me for a time.
Yet this subsided and after experience such... everything else seems rather inconsequential.
Further as some one whos basis is rationality, I have zero explanation for such an experience...
Clearly its the WTF experience of my life.. Neither can I enter into such a state or seem to progress from it in any meaningful fashion.. Its created a feeling of limbo...
No if I ever try and research white light experience, I can never find any parallels, why do other people not suddenly become such...
All I can every read of is either, NDE, Medative Experiences or Visions.. But not waking state sudden complete emersion with such...
Lol what a trick to be played on one that deems them self an athiest, thanks universe...